Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Yesterday Beefcake and I went to the zoo. Apparently so did every person in the greater Los Angeles area who possessed a small child. It made us both very tired so I had no energy for a post yesterday.

Anyway, I will be at Expo this weekend but in a limited capacity. For me this was the worst possible week they could have scheduled the thing. We have that earthquake drill tomorrow and then Homecoming is Friday so we're taking the senior class picture for yearbook and Saturday morning I'm doing a whole thing and Saturday night there's another whole thing and I'm somehow going to try to cram in Expo time.

I will be there some on Thursday and I will definitely try the Open. I may not be there Friday at all but I will be back Saturday if I advance in the Open and I will be there Sunday evening to see if a certain someone wins the whole shebang with his TV episode. I unfortunately did not advance because I suck.

I'm pretty sad about that, especially since I submitted not only Not Dead Yet but also my favorite short script, The Corner. I'm doing some real soul searching at this moment, trying to figure out if my perception of my own talent is really that far off.

What if I'm one of those sucky American Idol people who think they can sing but can't? What if I sound like a hyena on crack?

I know, I know, it's just one contest and it's just one script. It's just - this is the first script I've ever written that I feel 100% confident about. What if that confidence is completely misplaced?

I'd better finish my next script so I don't get depressed and eat a whole bundt cake for dinner.

In the meantime, I might see you at the Expo or a might not. I'm gonna bust my ass to do well in the Open though. I need some restored confidence.


  1. This is not what I want to hear. I invested heavily in The Corner and I'm looking for a return. Now get off your ass!

  2. Anonymous11:37 AM

    I know how you feel. I wrote a Law and Order: Criminal Intent script, and I just got an e-mail with the contest results so far. I can't believe I didn't even make the Quarterfinalists list. Sheesh.

    Sarah Mathews

  3. Anonymous12:36 PM

    I totally wouldn't let this get you down. I didn't advance either, but I know I am good.

    It's possible your script was just not to their taste. It's not a case of it not being good, just an acquired taste.

    Keep your chin up. And of course keep writing.

  4. Ohhh Millar that was you? I didn't know who that was because it only gave me a nickname or an email address or something. So thank you very much for your investment; I will use it ever so wisely. I plan to shoot it within the next year.

    If nothing else, this at least should be a kick in the pants to work harder. I guess.

  5. Script contests are kind of hit or miss. A lot of them don't have the manpower to read all the scripts they get, and so they recruit volunteers, who are rarely paid (and more rarely paid well) for their time, so your confidence isn't misplaced.

    But I think your finishing the next script is the best thing for you.

  6. Yeah, so very subjective. If the first reader hates zombies or boxing...then you're done right there.

    Hmm...Zombie Boxing...

    Keep movin' yo.


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